Down in the dumps

on the outside looking in. I just expect too much of others and put everyone ahead of myself. I need to stop!

Random Thoughts

a lot has gone on in my personal life. I'm so tired. I take care of everyone else first. I give and give. I make other people happy at my own expense. It's my fault. And then I'm hurt. How do I stop letting the littlest things tear me down? I don't have the energy for all of this anymore. I'm so tired. I give my all and get back 40%. It's just not fair. I can't just turn and walk away. Well, I guess I could, but I won't. I just want to be happy. If I have to be completely alone to do it, then so be it. This is killing me. I have no energy when I'm awake. I barely sleep. I am just making through each miserable day as it comes. And I'm really just self talking here so please don't judge me. Don't tell me all the give positive to get it and be happy to be happy yadda, yadda, yadda. I KNOW all of that. Just let me have my place to cry for a minute. I'll be okay.