Dilemma

No post yesterday because again, I had nothing to say. I know some may not believe that, but tis true! I don't have much to say today either.

I do have a job interview tomorrow. Not a job I really want but it would be a job. Thing is it's only until the end of the school year with no idea of whether I'd have a job again come fall. I'm asking myself what is the point, really? It's a one-on-one aide position with a blind severely mentally challenged child. That's all they told me on the phone today. I'll go to the interview but my heart isn't going to be in it. I fear that they'll offer the job then and there. *sigh*

I've been waiting for a call since Tuesday on a job I thought was a sure thing. It was at a place I used to work for about eight years ago. I was in that job for four years and loved it. Saw an ad in the online newspaper and applied. Got a call from the recruiter on Tuesday saying someone I worked with before was now in charge and interested in hiring me back. We talked a little bit and he said he wasn't sure if I was going to interview with him or with the woman. I've been waiting for a call back since.

So, I grabbed the bull by the horns this afternoon and called up there, leaving a message on his voice mail. I basically said I was going to be out all day tomorrow (really only part of it, but I needed a reason for calling him) and wanted to be sure they have my cell phone number in case they try to reach me. Was it the right thing to do? I don't know.

I really want this job. It will mean another move, but we'll still be in Illinois (west Chicago burbs) and only about three hours from here. Far enough away that the girls can't take advantage of dad and I (babysitting on a moment's notice) but close enough to get here in an emergency if needed. This would give us somewhat of a clean start once again and I think both Tim and I are desperately needing that right now.

There! I've gone and posted about it. If it's meant to be, it will be. If not, I just have to keep on. The thing is, I don't want to go this interview, accept a job, and then get a call come Monday for the other. On the other hand, I don't want to put all my eggs in one basket. Seems I have a brewing dilemma. Dang!